Do you ever get a great and overwhelming sense of… the only word for it has to be relief… to think your first novel didn’t get published? I just felt it, undeniable relief sitting here in the café, skimming through pages I am happy to stay hidden for the rest of my life. Never publishing … Continue reading »
Too tied up in knots to do much work on my new novel today, though my Chapter One still holds immense excitement and doesn’t understand the cold shoulder. I’m distracted by: Bad dreams Revision nerves Doubts Cold feet (literally—it’s too cold in here to be wearing these shoes) Submission depression over the absolute pointlessness in … Continue reading »
Just woke up from a dream about my book’s cover. In the dream, I happened to see an advance cover flat by accident and I wasn’t happy with what I saw. But I was afraid to say. In the author photo section there was a picture… of someone else. That someone looked like Cousin It … Continue reading »
I have the best mom in the world. The best mom for a writer. The best, you have no idea. I was just writing up a draft of the acknowledgments for my novel and got all teary-eyed thinking about what to say about her. She made me my favorite macaroni and cheese the night before … Continue reading »
Transitioning into writing this new novel while I know there are still revisions to come on another is a strange experience, like standing with one foot on ground and one in the bath. I’m getting excited though, too excited. I want to throw myself in with all the bubbles, dunk my head under and hold … Continue reading »
OK, screw all this about my mood. My book is listed on Amazon! I think the ages will change (it’s supposed to be 9-13), and the manuscript I wrote might not fit into 208 pages, though I am totally ready and willing to cut, and a pub date of September 22, 2009?, really?, who knows … Continue reading »
In addition to what I couldn’t help bragging about last night, I am also making some progress in one other area of my life that doesn’t involve instant cooking. I found what may be the first line of the novel yesterday while I was taking the subway home from work. I say it like I … Continue reading »
I had a tough day feeling down about myself. The idea of writing a whole new novel from scratch in order to find an agent is feeling really daunting and I can’t remember why I was so hopped up about it before. Also? Work. But… tonight I did one good thing. And I think it’s … Continue reading »
I’m trying to stay upbeat and move on to the next thing and be happy for what I have and grateful— Oh, maybe that’s it. Thanksgiving is swiftly approaching, and holidays all somehow bring about stress, no matter if you tell your husband I promise I will not be stressed out this time, I promise. … Continue reading »
My endless “About Me” page was so outdated… so, by popular demand (OK, fine, one person asked), I updated it at long last. It actually ends on a hopeful note this time. What’s going on? Am I becoming a happy person? You decide. Continue reading »
