Should I Read?

Reasons for reading aloud an excerpt of my short story in front of strangers and maybe some people who know me, not being sure which is worse, and combatting a probable anxiety disorder that runs unchecked without meds because meds would be admitting defeat:

1) I like reading aloud from my short stories. Mostly to empty rooms, but the concept is the same.

2) I like hearing other people read from their short stories, even if I am too nervous to swallow solid foods or to stop shaking my foot incessantly while I listen.

3) I like supporting small literary journals in any way I can and this one has actually used precious pages to publish me (me!) and so to be asked to read for them is something I certainly cannot refuse.

4) It could be fun. If I were able to relax enough to let it be.

Reasons for NOT reading aloud an excerpt of my short story in front of strangers and maybe some people who know me, not being sure which is worse, and combatting a probable anxiety disorder that runs unchecked without meds because meds would be admitting defeat:

1) Possible embarrassment.

2) Possible shame.

3) Possible tomatoes thrown at head.

I haven't decided for sure yet, but I am thinking maybe I should do it. I like tomatoes, actually.

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