distraction no.99

Nova Ren Suma | On Writing & Writing Distractions

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When the Novel Gets Close But You Don’t Want to Leave the Igloo

When the Novel Gets Close But You Don’t Want to Leave the Igloo

I’ve got this novel that wants to be ready. This novel that’s close to show. I’ve spent much of the weekend on it—to the detriment of my unread and unanswered email inbox and putting away the clean laundry and only doing four hours a day of freelance instead of eight, which is really going to catch up with me on Monday. I just completed yet another draft of this novel’s synopsis and wrote some new pages. I have a little more work to go before I can show it and I’m sloooooolllly working through the pages today, taking my sweet time, not yet wanting to think of the moment when I hit the inevitable Send.

This morning there I was in the café, thinking, Oh wow I like this. Wondering, Should I like this? Worrying, It’s too soon to admit I like this. But this novel wants me, and I want it. At least it’s mutual.

At some point, and soon, I’ll have to let go. I’ll have to show my agent. And he’ll have me work more on it and then, once it’s ready, I’ll have to show a publisher. I’ll have to face the scary part. I think that’s why keeping myself writing it feels so safe and secure. Like a nice little igloo. It’s warm inside.

Does it ever get easier for seasoned authors? Every time I have to show something I’ve written and wonder if anyone will want to publish it, it’s the most humbling, frightening experience. If and when it happens for this particular novel, the submission process, I won’t be able to talk about it at all. Not until after.

But I’m not there yet.

Not yet.

What a relief.

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4 responses to “When the Novel Gets Close But You Don’t Want to Leave the Igloo”

  1. Well, it hasn’t gotten easier for me. I had a couple of rejections on things this past winter, and when I finally had an idea I loved and was ready to write again, I wrote the whole thing and didn’t show it to anyone. I just couldn’t face more rejection. It was so nice, having that time where it was just me and the story and nothing else mattered. And I suppose at some level I knew it was good, or I wouldn’t have kept going, wouldn’t have finished.

    It is very hard combining the business side of writing with the creative side. We don’t want to waste time writing something that won’t sell and yet, anything negative about our writing can affect the creativity to write something else!

    • Thanks for commenting on this, Lisa. I find your experience so very helpful—and somehow heartening, to discover it’s not just me who wants to keep things close. I’m wishing you all the best with your book. I have a feeling it turned out perfectly, didn’t it?

      And yes, I am easily influenced by negativity. Too easily. I wish I could not care so much!

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