A Sneak Peek at 17 & GONE (If You Want One!)

I mentioned this yesterday, but here is a post to say this and only this:

I’m notoriously private about my novels and rarely show people until my book is edited and done. This is because so much changes in the editing, and I like having only a very few people know the early stages of what the novel was in the beginning. My editor makes me look better than I am, and I’d like to keep it that way. But even beyond that, I’m kind of superstitious about talking about novels in specifics before they’re complete (not including with E, my agent, or my editor—they get to know… other people, I’d rather they not know, no offense). Talking about a novel too soon can deflate it and sap its magic. Talking about a novel too soon with the wrong person—even if that person means no harm—can ruin the whole novel, for me. Some people’s ideas flourish by talking. Mine like to be kept secret and private until the time comes to let them out into the light.

Told you I’m superstitious!

But I can talk about 17 & Gone now—not only because it’s done, but because, as of yesterday, some of its pages have been released into the world and people I don’t know—anyone who wants to!—can read them. I’m kind of freaked out. Excited, yes, and freaked—can’t I be both?

So here, excite me and freak me out further and go read the opening chapters of 17 & Gone in the Penguin Teen Spring 2013 Preview:

Penguin Teen Spring 2013 Preview!

The Inadvertent Creative Break

(The view from my new writing desk.)

I haven’t announced this or made a big deal of this, but it appears that I’ve been on some kind of quiet walk through the woods of my brain lately. It’s dark in here and there’s lots going on and I kind of don’t want to come out just yet.

This isn’t a formal break or a true sabbatical like one of my favorite authors, Sara Zarr, is taking (for inspiration, I highly recommend you read her blogs about her sabbatical if you aren’t reading already). No, this is nothing so well-thought-out and maturely faced.

It’s just that after finishing the last round of revisions for 17 & Gone in July, and my computer breaking and not getting replaced until late August, I discovered that I am not sure what book I want to write next. I have so many ideas for YA novels—and other kinds of novels, too—so it’s not for lack of ideas. It’s more: What should be next? Where does my heart want to live for the next year, two years? What would my editor and agent want of me? What would my readers want of me? But most of all—more than anything, I admit: What do I want of me?

I thought I knew, and I did have something almost ready, but my heart doesn’t want that to be the book anymore, so a proposal that was almost ready to get submitted has been set aside for the time being while I try my hand at something else to show my agent. I’d expected this would take me a week, maybe two, and look where we are now: the end of September.

Every time I think about this I go through a bout of panic, beating myself up for what I’ve done, and yet I can’t seem to speed it up, either. The new idea I’m working through needs time. It changes and shifts and emerges with new heads each day I work on it.

So I guess I’ve slowed to a crawl.

I think part of this is fear, of course. Fear of not having a new book under contract and worrying what will happen when I try. Fear of 17 & Gone coming out this spring. Fear.

But at the same time, it’s wanting to have my third YA novel be the right one. And—no matter how scared I am, no matter how nervous and knotted up and annoyed at my snail-like pace I become—the truth is, I’m not writing on command here. I want to write something I truly love and that’s important to me and speaks to me and speaks through me. And sometimes this just takes time.

So, privately, that’s what I’m dealing with. Publicly, you can find me in two places, if you’re so inclined.

This weekend I’ll be at KidLitCon in New York City. Maybe I’ll see some of you there.

And online, I wrote a guest blog in WORD for Teen’s “Characterize” series. Who did I write about? Ruby from Imaginary Girls. Hope you’ll go read my contribution.

One last thing to tell you: While I was writing this blog—admitting to my fear, and thinking of my brand-new idea in progress and wondering when I’ll be able to let it go—something pretty awesome happened.

Penguin Teen released its Spring 2013 sampler, and 17 & Gone is in it! Maybe this is telling me something… To not be afraid. To not make excuses. To not worry about spending the time finding the right idea and the right way to approach that idea.

To be brave.

So, bravely, I will share the link with you…

Do you want a free peek at 17 & Gone—among such amazing company with other Penguin Teen authors like Lindsay Ribar, Gayle Forman, Maureen Johnson, and Ruta Sepetys? Go read the opening chapters of my new novel, and I hope you like them!

Turning Points: Guest Post by Shannon Messenger (+Giveaway)

This guest post is part of the Turning Points blog series here on distraction no. 99—in which I asked authors the question: What was your turning point as a writer? Here, less than a week before her middle-grade debut Keeper of the Lost Cities comes out, is Shannon Messenger revealing hers…


Guest post by Shannon Messenger

Coming October 2 from Simon & Schuster / Aladdin!

I didn’t want to make the same mistake again.

By mistake, I mean jumping headfirst into a career I knew absolutely nothing about. Like when I switched to a film major, even though I had no idea how Hollywood actually worked (or even what being a film major meant—but that’s a whole other story altogether). A few years later I had a degree I never planned to use, interning experience for jobs I didn’t want, and a whole lot of pride swallowing to do when I made the terrifying decision to leave LA.

But that’s not the turning point I’m here to talk about.

I’m talking about the after.

The part where I realized I’d lost something when I set aside my dreams of writing for the silver screen. I missed sinking into another world and falling in love with the characters and getting swept away in all the excitement as the plot unfolded. I still had stories swirling around in my head—but now I was fighting them, snuffing them out, and the loss made me ache in ways I didn’t fully understand.

The more I missed it, the more I started to wonder if I should try writing again. But not a screenplay—never a screenplay again.

A children’s book.

I had an idea for a middle-grade fantasy series that was refusing to be ignored. And while I knew zero about writing novels, I’d spent years studying screenwriting. Surely everything I’d been taught would still apply. Screenplays couldn’t be that different, could they?

I quickly discovered that yes, yes they were. Of course there were overlaps—but when it came down to it I had no idea what I was doing. And after a few months of dragging embarrassingly bad files to a “deleted scenes” folder on my laptop, I started to wonder if I should just give up on the whole idea.

But the real problem wasn’t my inexperience with novel writing.

I was struggling to put the proper effort into polishing my craft because the whole thing felt like a waste of time. It seemed pointless to really invest my energy into writing a book if I wasn’t going to try to have it published. And pursuing publication felt too much like chasing another crazy Hollywood dream—and I knew how that had worked out for me. I wasn’t going to commit to something like that again. Not without knowing what I was getting myself into this time.

I tried to do my homework by reading articles and blogs—anything I found that told me about the book business. But none of that could show me what it was really like to be an author. How it would affect my life. And that was the crucial piece of information I needed before I could decide.

So when I heard about an event called Project Book Babe, where a group of children’s authors were teaming up to raise money for a book buyer friend battling breast cancer, I begged my husband to let me buy tickets. Yes it was expensive—and yes it meant driving to Arizona for something that he did not think sounded nearly as exciting as I did—but it was for a great cause, and he agreed it was a perfect chance for me to meet authors at all different stages of their careers and hopefully figure out if this was something I should do with my life.

A few weeks later we made the five-hour trip to Tempe, Arizona. And I’ll confess, I spent most of that drive watching the barren desert landscape whizz by and wondering if I was losing my mind.

I’d walked away from Hollywood because I absolutely did not belong. The constant networking to get ahead. The inescapable competition. It just wasn’t me. All I’d wanted was an outlet to tell my stories. I’d never had any hunger for fame—and the longer I was around it the more I realized how incredibly destructive fame could be.

But being an author was a level of fame too. A smaller, quieter one. But still—fame. So I didn’t see how publishing could ever be a right fit for me.

Until I got to Project Book Babe.

Poster from the Project Book Babe event

As I sat in that high school auditorium listening to the amazing authors talk about what inspired them and how they felt about their characters and what they loved about writing, it felt like they were speaking for me—not to me. Like they were channeling everything I’d ever thought about storytelling and what I wanted from a career and broadcasting it straight back to me. And the event was about as un-Hollywood as you get. No red carpet or paparazzi. No special spotlights for the authors who’d sold more books or won more awards. Just ten people at tables with poster-board signs, answering questions and auctioning off items they’d donated to help raise money for friend—and not because that friend was some uber-powerful publishing mogul who might help further their careers. They were helping her because they cared about her and she’d been an awesome cheerleader for their books and because she deserved it.

These were my kind of people.

And I knew—right there, right then—that this was it.

I was so sure I remember leaning over to my husband and whispering, I can do this. 

This was me. This was a career that fit. And I suddenly wanted it more than I’d ever wanted anything. Even though I had a lot to learn. Even though I knew it would be hard. This was it—the dream that was finally worth chasing. And I was going to race after it with everything I had.

I left Project Book Babe armed not only with that newfound determination, but also a new way of approaching my draft. One of the authors had talked about writing everything the character did to get from Point A to Point B—even though it meant throwing lots away at the end—because they discovered amazing things along the character’s journey. It was the exact opposite of how I’d been working, with my rigid outline, and the first day I tried it I had a breakthrough. A new character popped into my story—one who quickly wormed his way through the entire series—and with him in my arsenal the whole plot finally started to come together.

It still took me two more years and twenty drafts (yes, really) to finally tell my story the right way and make it good enough to sell. But all that work paid off. Keeper of the Lost Cities will be published by Simon & Schuster this fall. And I hope it will be the first of many books to come.


Shannon Messenger graduated from the USC School of Cinematic Arts where she learned—among other things—that she liked watching movies much better than making them. She also regularly eats cupcakes for breakfast, sleeps with a bright blue stuffed elephant named Ella, and occasionally gets caught talking to imaginary people. So it was only natural for her to write stories for children. KEEPER OF THE LOST CITIES is her first middle-grade novel, launching October 2, 2012. LET THE SKY FALL, a young adult novel, will follow in Spring 2013. She lives in Southern California with her husband and an embarrassing number of cats.

Find her online at shannonmessenger.com.

Follow @SW_Messenger on Twitter.


ANNOUNCING THE WINNER OF THE GIVEAWAY…

The winner of a signed finished copy of Keeper of the Lost Cities… plus the Project Book Babe poster signed by Stephenie Meyer, Shannon Hale, Brandon Mull, Laini Taylor, Dean Lorey, Chris Gall, Janette Rallison, James A. Owen, Jon S. Lewis, P.J. Haarisma, and Frank Beddor is…

…Ren White! 

Congrats, Ren! I’ll email you for your mailing address. And thank you so much to Shannon for offering up this generous prize and to everyone who read her post and entered!


There’s more in the Turning Points series. Catch up with any posts you may have missed here.

My Upcoming Presentation at KidLitCon

If you’ll be at the Kidlitosphere Conference at the New York Public Library this weekend, look for me there! You’ll find me giving a presentation on blog series with the amazing Kelly Jensen from STACKED on Saturday at 12 noon—we have a great talk prepared for you and can’t wait!

And if you’re a blogger/reviewer/librarian/reader who has any interest in my upcoming 2013 novel, 17 & Gone, you should stick around and come up to me at the very end of that presentation. I’ll have ten *signed* 17 & Gone ARCs to give away to those who want one, which means you’ll get a hold of an ARC way early.

The ARC mailing to bloggers will likely be going out end of November! So this way, you’ll have an ARC two months earlier than most…

…And if I have any ARCs left over, I’ll give the rest away on this blog. I’ll let you know.

Hope to see some of you at KidLitCon! Just heard registration is full, wow!

Fall 2012 YA Debut International Giveaway!

Want one last—international!—opportunity to win one of the Fall 2012 YA debut novels I featured in my interview series? Well, here it is. Enter and choose the book you most want from the ten I featured by filling out the entry form embedded in this post…

Need some help deciding? Here are the authors’ most favorite lines from their books…

“NERVE’s a game of truth or dare, without the truth part.” —Nerve by Jeanne Ryan

“The first time Miranda Blackwood checked the back of her closet for a portal to another world she was eleven.” —Blackwood by Gwenda Bond

“You’ve always been our monster,” says Adrian. “Don’t ever forget that.” —The Lost Girl by Sangu Mandanna

“Tomorrow is nothing after two months of never again.” —Through to You by Emily Hainsworth

“Gyver—the boy who’d visited every day in the hospital, whose voice chased away my fear, and whose hands knew just when to hold me—wasn’t mine.” —Send Me a Sign by Tiffany Schmidt

“I think of a forgotten lake and hopeful poppies.” —What Happens Next by Colleen Clayton

“I don’t want to be kept safe! I don’t want to be kept, not by anyone.” —Skylark by Meagan Spooner

“Sometimes when I fall, I don’t just remember. I forget.” —Fall to Pieces by Vahini Naidoo

“Winter stopped hiding Tricia Farni on Good Friday.” —Blind Spot by Laura Ellen

“As my head broke the surface it all became clear. I had died…again.” —Touching the Surface by Kimberly Sabatini

Giveaway now closed. Thanks to everyone who entered!

Don’t Miss These Debuts

If you missed any of the debut interviews this week, be sure to check them out:


What Happens Next and Colleen Clayton:

“There is nothing like holding a book in your hands with your name on the front of it. . . . I would run my finger down the spines and think: Wow. I did it. I really did it.”

Read my interview with Colleen Clayton and enter to win a signed and personalized finished copy plus 10 bookmarks!


Meagan Spooner and Skylark:

“I made a promise to myself that I would write at least 500 words a day, every day, until the book was done. Weekends, holidays, sick days, days I was on an airplane for 16 hours… didn’t matter, the writing still got done.”

Read my interview with Meagan Spooner and enter to win a 16X24 poster of the Skylark cover!


Vahini Naidoo and Fall to Pieces:

Fall to Pieces wanted to be written nearly nonstop during a crucial exam period in my senior year of high school, which was a bit bratty of it, really. I appeased it by giving it its way—what can I say, I’m a bit of a pushover.”

Read my interview with Vahini Naidoo and enter to win a pre-order!


Laura Ellen and Blind Spot:

“It is dark, 3 or 4 a.m. and just a small table lamp is on. My ideal reader is huddled in bed, hunched over Blind Spot, its spine clutched in her hands. She is dog-tired, eyes barely open, but she cannot put the book down because she has to see what happens next.”

Read my interview with Laura Ellen and enter to win a signed ARC plus bookmarks! 


Kimberly Sabatini and Touching the Surface:

“If I had to pick one moment that has made me suck in my breath and say wow, I think it was being given an ARC of Touching the Surface to give to Laurie Halse Anderson. She was the first person I ever heard speak at a conference and it changed me—deeply. I was able to give her the first book I’ve ever signed. It was a very moving, full-circle moment for me.”

Read my interview with Kimberly Sabatini and enter to win a signed finished copy, a $25 Barnes & Noble gift card, and some swag!


And come back tomorrow for an international chance to win one of the ten Fall 2012 YA debuts featured… your choice!

First Round of Debut Giveaway Winners!

Today I’m announcing some winners for the Fall 2012 YA Debut Interview giveaways! First off, thank you so much to everyone who read the interviews and shared them online—and to all the authors who answered my questions and offered up their books for prizes!

Here are the first five winners from Week 1 of the interviews:

The winner of a signed finished copy of Nerve by Jeanne Ryan:

Catherine Knox

The winner of a signed finished copy of Blackwood by Gwenda Bond and a home-made swag duct tape rose pen:

Steve Thomas

The winner of a finished copy of The Lost Girl by Sangu Mandanna:

Jessica Secret

The winner of a signed and personalized ARC of Through to You by Emily Hainsworth:

Diana

And the winner of a signed finished copy of Send Me a Sign by Tiffany Schmidt:

Rachel Thomas

I’ll be in touch with all the winners to ask for their mailing addresses. Congrats, everyone!

I’ll announce the second week of winners next week.

And don’t forget: Even if you didn’t win this time, come back on Monday for an INTERNATIONAL chance to win the debut of your choice…