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Turning Points: Guest Post by Sarah Darer Littman (+Giveaway)

This guest post is part of the Turning Points blog series here on distraction no. 99—in which I asked authors the question: What was your turning point as a writer? I’m honored and excited to host their stories. Read on as Sarah Darer Littman reveals how she had to “turn off the noise” in order to find the way to write her next book…

Sometimes, you just have to take a few steps backwards and turn off the noise.

That’s a hard lesson to absorb when you’re an “overachiever” type personality. The kind of girl who tries to “Climb Every Mountain,” then immediately thinks about scaling the next peak before taking the time to enjoy the view.

But all the most important lessons I’ve learned in life haven’t come easily, so why should the ones in my writing life be any different?

Confessions of a Closet Catholic

Maybe this lesson was so hard because my first book came too easily. When, at age 38, I finally gave myself the permission to pursue writing, the passion I was discouraged from following because it wouldn’t lead to a lucrative career, I made a promise to myself that I would get a book contract for my 40th birthday present to myself. I achieved that goal two months after my birthday. Close enough. My first book, Confessions of a Closet Catholic, came out to good reviews and won the 2006 Sydney Taylor book award for Older Readers. But in the background, my marriage was falling apart, and with it, my confidence in the future—and my writing. After all, isn’t marriage supposed to be for life? And after writing a book that earned out in the first royalty period, aren’t you supposed to be able to sell your next book on proposal?

Maybe in theory, but in practice I’ve learned the hard way that your mileage may vary. And both of those lessons—about marriage and writing—came at the same time, during what I refer to as my “Second Book Blues” period.

Confessions was a middle grade, and both my then editor and agent were telling me to write more middle grade because I “didn’t have a YA voice.”

My editor wanted me to write even younger—as a nine-year-old, something that I had no interest in doing at that point. In the future, maybe. But the stories inside me at that very moment, the ones waiting to be told, had to be young adult, because of their subject matter.

My reaction to being told I can’t do something tells you exactly why I am a young adult author—because the more they told me I couldn’t write YA, the more determined I was to do it. Because I would show them, damn it! *

And thus the Dark Years commenced. I would work on an idea for three months, produce a synopsis and three sample chapters, and… “Sorry it’s not working.” Rejection. I started to wonder if my first book was a fluke. I couldn’t understand what was the matter with me, what was the matter with my writing. I was on a listserv for published YA writers, and it seemed like every week someone was getting a two-book deal based on a paragraph. It tapped into all my high school angst about being a Loser with a Capital L.

Winning the Sydney Taylor award in early January 2006 was a double-edged sword—incredibly validating because it was awarded by librarians, but terrifying at the same time because inside I felt undeserving, a fraud. Did they realize I was such a failure at producing a second book? That if VH-1 had One-Hit Wonders for authors, I’d be on that show—except I’d be a One “Not Exactly a New York Times Best Seller Kind of Hit” Wonder?

When I turned up for my first ever-writing retreat, Kindling Words, in Vermont in January 2006, I was desperate and demoralized. I was in year three of the Never Ending Divorce and it was also coming up on three years since I’d sold Confessions and without another book deal on the horizon.

I was sweating on an exercise machine at 6:30 am with Nancy Werlin and Sarah Aronson in the tiny little workout room at the Inn, whingeing about my career woes. Nancy, who is one of the smartest people I know in the writing world, said, “You’re showing your writing too early.” Sarah agreed. We got into a discussion about selling on proposal vs. writing the whole book first and it hit me that published authors don’t always have to sell on proposal. Okay we hear about all the people who get two-book deals on a paragraph, but that isn’t everyone. And maybe, just maybe, I am not that kind of author. Does that suck cash-flow wise? Yes, it does. Is it more risky? Totally, unless you have an editor that you trust and can touch base with while you’re writing. But what is more soul destroying? Trying to work against type and beating your head up against the wall, or accepting your process and working with it?

I left Kindling Words with the beginning of my new project, which became my second book, Purge. I told my agent I was going to write most of the book before I showed her any of it. I turned off the noise, all the voices that made me feel inadequate and Loser-like (things like unsubscribing to the listserv I was on for a while) and started to listen instead to the voice inside. The one that loved writing for the sake of it, not because she was worried about selling another book. The one who had stories inside that were bursting to be told, if only I would listen.

Do you want to know the biggest irony? After we sold Purge and I’d convinced myself that I was an author who had to write the whole book, my next two books were sold on proposal in a two-book deal. Go figure.

Life, AfterWant to Go Private?

But after Want to Go Private? I needed to do the retreat and turn off the noise tactic again. For a variety of reasons, I chose to write the entire book—I’m now about to start revising my crummy first draft.

In some ways it’s nerve-wracking. But in other ways, it’s allowing me to push myself and explore.

One thing I’ve learned over the course of writing five books (and abandoning countless others) is that every book has a slightly different process. While we all want to keep moving forward, sometimes taking a few steps back helps us figure it out.

*Are you glad you aren’t my mother? Now that I’m the mom of teenagers, I start so many conversations with, “Mom, I know I was a really awful teenager but…” To my mother’s eternal credit, she has only said, “What goes around comes around” once, even though I’m sure she has wanted to waaaaaay more often!

—Sarah Darer Littman

Sarah Darer Littman’s first novel, Confessions of a Closet Catholic, won the 2006 Sydney Taylor Book Award for Older Readers. Her novel Life, After was a 2011 Sydney Taylor Honor Book. She is also the author of Purge and Want to Go Private?, which Entertainment Weekly called “scary and engrossing.”

In addition to writing for teens, Sarah is an award-winning columnist for Hearst Newspapers (CT) and CTNewsJunkie.com.

Sarah lives in Connecticut with her family. Visit her online at sarahdarerlittman.com, wanttogoprivate.com, and on Twitter as @sarahdarerlitt.


Confessions of a Closet CatholicLife, AfterWant to Go Private?

Thank you to everyone who entered the giveaway via the entry form—and thank you to the author for donating the prizes! I’m happy to announce the winners:

Annika won a signed copy of Confessions of a Closet Catholic!

Heather Perkinson won a signed copy of Purge!

Zara D. Garcia-Alvarez won a signed copy of Life, After!

Robin Willis won a signed copy of Want to Go Private?

And there was one winner of the grand prize of signed copies of ALL FOUR of Sarah Darer Littman’s books… and that lucky person is:

Haley won the grand prize of signed copies of all four books!

Congrats to all five of the winners! I’ll email the winners for their mailing addresses. Thank you again to everyone who entered!

Want more in this blog series?

The Turning Points series will continue with new guest posts three times a week. Subscribe to distraction no. 99 to keep up with the series, or read all the posts with this tag.

Here are the posts in the series so far:

You can keep up with all the open giveaways on the giveaways page!

Series images by Robert Roxby.

26 responses to “Turning Points: Guest Post by Sarah Darer Littman (+Giveaway)”

  1. I really identify with writing the whole story first before showing it to anyone. I learned this the hard way, but luckily, early enough before I let the voices of doubt and doom got the best of me. Thank you for sharing your experience with us.

  2. I live in the UK, so I can’t enter the giveaway, but I had to comment anyway to say THANK YOU for writing this post. I needed so, so badly to read it – right now I’m doing exactly that, writing the full book before letting myself show it to my agent or editor, and the timing just could not have been better for me to read this. THANK YOU!

  3. What an excellent post. Writers should definitely take the advice to heart. Everyone has a different way to do things, but every way works. It’s finding out what works best for each and every one of us.

  4. SUCH good advice, to ignore all the noise and just write the book first, to take a few steps back and let your brain regroup when things get tough. It’s so hard to ignore all that noise, but that special one-on-one time with your first draft is priceless; after all, how can you truly get to know your story and characters if you’re clouded by the influence and opinions of others?

    I’m beginning to ramble, but basically — just a great post, Sarah. I feel inspired and recharged now. Thank you. ❤

  5. This series is incredible Nova, seriously. But Sarah, thank you for sharing your journey! There are two things I’m taking away from this: (1) Sometimes, you have to pursue the interests of your heart even if other people are directing you to do something else and (2) What works for someone else may not work for you.

  6. Love hearing this story. The overachiever thing can be a liability when it keeps you butting your head up against the same wall just because you have a hard head. And then someone else’s perspective breaks the deadlock and turns your persistence back into an asset. Nice.

  7. I can’t get enough of these stories, especially seeing that every author’s journey is so different.

  8. Alexa – writing this way has made me in the words of a publicist “hard to brand” but part of the reason I write is to explore answers to questions that fascinate, disturb, provoke me. I really do consider myself a lifelong learner, and so writing each book is a learning experience not just in craft, but in expanding intellectual horizons for me, and as a result, hopefully the reader as well. Re: 2) Another thing I learned from the wonderful Laurie Halse Anderson it’s there’s an important corollary to “what works for someone else may not work for you” and that’s “What works for one book might not work for the next book.” In other words, as Laurie put it, each book requires its own set of tools from the toolbox. Sometimes you even have to learn or discover new tools to write the book. When I heard LHA say that, it was a revelation for me. My process has changed from book to book, and I’ve learned to accept that and be patient with the period at the beginning of the first draft where I’m feeling my way into it because I realize I’ve got to figure out what tools I need to write THIS PARTICULAR BOOK.

  9. You have introduced me to a new author, so I thank you. No matter what, I will be checking out Sarah Darer Littman’s books.

  10. Thank you for such an incredible, honest, heartwarming post!

    I love this: “My reaction to being told I can’t do something tells you exactly why I am a young adult author—because the more they told me I couldn’t write YA, the more determined I was to do it. Because I would show them, damn it! ”

    ccfioriole at gmail dot com

  11. Wonderful and inspiring interview Sarah! ‘turn off the noise ‘ is great advice for so many things. I always enjoy your honesty and your bravery in putting yourself out there. It’s such a gift to everyone around you.

  12. It must be so difficult when you’ve got so many different voices and opinions coming at you from so many different sources. So glad you were able to find the way to make your own voice come through. 🙂

  13. Thanks for sharing Sarah! I have yet to publish my own book, so I understand the struggle completely. But, you’re right about shutting the noise and stepping back from things…and deciding personally on your own type of writing process. We make many assumptions as writers and always hope that our writing will be recognized and that the second or the third books will get published just as easy if not easier than the ones before. Congratulations on your publishing career!

    Zara D. Garcia-Alvarez
    Email: zgarcia(dot)alvarez(at)gmail(dot)com
    On Twitter: @ZaraAlexis

  14. I’d always assumed after the first book is published, everything is easy and great for authors after that. Haha, not so. I’m so glad you got through it though! Thanks for the guest post. :]

  15. What a great story of perseverence and determination. Good for you. Congratulations on achieving your goals. Your books sound interesting.

  16. This is a great story. I like the idea of shutting the noise, especially in the beginning stages of writing a book. I’m excited to read Sarah’s books!

  17. I love that defiance had a part in turning to young adult! It drives me up the wall when people tell me I can’t do something and I have a similar reaction. Let’s hope someone challenges my ability to write a full-length novel so I get back to writing…

  18. I love Want to Go Private and my students have destroyed my copy. It’s worn out and missing pages. I’d live to have a replacement copy because it’s a book with such an important message.

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